Four Letter Word (Love)

what can only be described as bitter sweet
i have experienced half of what only few posses
four letters describe but could never begin to define
the disposition that my heart is left in
missed beats sporadically push my DNA through an obstacle course
rushing life to its destination in confusion
caused by the absence of my breath
numbness in my extremities
for it can only dream to feel
what my mind has wrapped itself around this time
sweat caressing my skin and exposing my discomfort
my expression bearing grammatical errors
formed words only a fantasy to a stifled thought
a pillar of salt dancing with conviction at my chin
moving to the disrupted beat of my pulse
awaiting a devastating decent to their fate
my soul struggling to be free from its console
its owner moving away from its mate
singing a song of distress to its other half
sounds only the slaves of the broken heart may hear
my mind being at war with my crippled heart
is what disables my trembling and much needed limbs
each stem is riddled with the weight of death
faith please drown me in your comfort
pride i beg you to keep your stride
hope stand strong if only for a while
time commit to my heart's rescue
soul do not cry in vain
your match cannot hear your screams
only a foreign language escapes your lips
your song is sung in vain
love
four letters describe but could never begin to define
the disposition my hear is left in
i have experienced half of what only few posses
the better half being those four letters returned
making them whole
i had jumped from high ground
my intentions not to jump alone
i fall
adrenaline rushes through my veins
my heart sputters
my breath is caught in my chest
tears streaming from my eyes
i descend
my soul's mate left behind
extremities numb
mind racing with fear
he decided to let me experience this alone
what few posses
a feeling that only the act of fearlessness itself could create
a daring move
letting everything go
but he is not here
i am alone
an act that could only be whole
to arrive on solid ground
complete.
my destination now a pool of rejection
but survival
when i collect myself and turn away
i will find another mountain to climb
and chose to jump again
only this time hand in hand